Happy Friday! I am in Day #2 of covering for a co-worker while she is on vacation at my part-time job. There will be time to reflect, set goals and get down on paper what I want to do for the rest of the year. It can be a very quiet office.
Today’s subject is a little different. I have talked endlessly about the time I spent reflecting last week and this topic actually came up. I have wondered what direction to take my blog. Do I want to focus on business topics? Do I want to focus on life? Do I want to have simple solutions to life’s challenges? Then driving home, it hit me……….
The picture above was posted by my daughter as we had a moment before we left North Carolina. Being in the gray area of diagnosis for my MS and Addison’s has caused me to feel like I am my illness. Crazy, right considering I am always saying #mswillnotdefineme BUT the truth is I was letting it define me. I was letting it become a part of everything – the reason I was gaining weight, the reason I was emotional, the reason why I had aches & pains and the list goes on. In an effort not to own or be responsible for what was happening, I quickly and easily blamed my diagnosis. The truth is I am a 59 year old who beat up her body for years. The years of drug addiction, bulimia, abortion, playing hard and never thinking about my health. I had aches and pains before I had a diagnosis or two.
As a people pleaser, I always listen to what others have to say then adopt my actions. I think back to when I started blogging, nothing planned just sharing my strengths, hopes and experiences. Over the years, yes 3 1/2 years to be exact, I have changed to fit into a mold of what others are doing or suggesting, simply trying to find a purpose. Playing the comparison game. Hoping for more readers. Hoping to turn those readers into customers or followers. Believe it or not, I actually have lost my love for writing. YIKES! Scary but true. I have wondered if I should continue or give it a rest. I wondered if anyone would notice. So many questions.
Then as I reflected on this simple post, I realized what I loved about my blog was I got to share and write whatever I wanted – business, personal, tips, recipes and I didn’t care because I knew somewhere it would touch the person who needed it.
So, I will continue writing. I may share about my struggles with doctors and my health. I may share about my amazing pink bubble and my business. I may share recipes. I will continue to share words of encouragement on Sundays.
I am owning my diagnosis, realizing it is just one part of me and what defines me. I am owning my blog as mine to do with as I want.
Another ramble but I hope it has touched someone – whether you are struggling with a medical diagnosis, growing your business, finding yourself or just looking for something to read. I would love to hear from you via comment or email at HopeWs31@gmail.com
Have a ThirtyOne-derful day!