Happy 8th Thirty One Anniversary to ME!!!!
I can’t believe eight years ago today, I started this journey. For many, staying 8 years at a job, any job, is amazing! I will admit in my own life, before recovery, I jumped from job to job always looking to make more money. More money equaled prestige, a title and deep down allowed me to bury my lack of confidence a little further. It wasn’t until I entered recovery the first time, I started to see happiness was more than just about the money, it was about making a difference.
Over the last few weeks, I have been thinking a lot, trying to remember life 8 years ago. 2011 was a crazy time – I got married to the love of my life after a 9 year engagement, I left a job I loved because of commuting and health issues and my relapse took on a life of its own.
Why am I talking about all of this? As I mark my eighth anniversary with Thirty One I realize the difference it has made in my life. Despite the many times I thought about quitting because I wasn’t “as good as” or “didn’t have a good month” or “didn’t earn the leadership trip” or any of the other comparisons/excuses I made – I stuck with it. God had a plan and even through my relapse, I felt it. For those who don’t know my Thirty One story, here it is. Did I remember it myself? NO! I’m grateful for blogging because it helps me to remember.
Here is how the story goes…..
See, the truth is I joined Thirty One in 2009 and didn’t do much with it. Yup, I was a kitknapper. I had a few sales but nothing much and it wasn’t long before I went inactive.
I can’t remember exactly how or why it all happened – God had a plan. I started following Hope Shortt on Facebook and I read her story. On February 7th, 2011, I talked with her and told her I wanted to join her Thirty One team. She asked me “what my why” was? Kind of the standard question when someone joins your team…
I was nervous and being a “people pleasing person” I told her I wanted to earn some extra money. I had a good job – Chief Operating Officer for a non-profit and who had time for much of anything else. BUT the truth was, deep down I had a big dream but fear and doubt crept in along with Negative Nellie so I stuffed it down deep. I started sharing the products at vendor/craft shows, not wanting to do home parties and really not interested in having a team. Recruiting wasn’t an option because I joined the day before the FREEZE. No, not the weather although it was cold; Thirty One froze enrollment because they were growing so fast. I was relieved. I had been doing craft/ vendor shows for over 20 years, so it was going to be easy. Hope listened and said she would be there to help when I needed her. No pressure just support and kindness.
So started my journey with Thirty One. I did LOTS of vendor events. Fear and doubt kept me company. I didn’t have much confidence – I know amazing, right? This was so far out of my comfort zone. I was a grant writer and social worker, what did I know about sales. I had several failed attempts at my own business so what was I thinking?
My first TWO potential recruits came during the “freeze”. I was honest with them, I was going to be learning along with them. Believe it or not, they still joined as soon as the freeze lifted and quickly qualified with $1,000 in sales. I was now a Senior Consultant and in Leadership. YIKES! I wasn’t sure what it meant but it was okay. I was having fun and slowly building confidence. Then my first home office lead wanted a HOME PARTY! Panic set in… it was someone I didn’t know and I was clueless. I stumbled my way through it – no additional parties bookedbut I had sales and it was kind of fun.
My FIRST Thirty One National Conference was August of 2012. It was there I set a goal and decided to write my dream on paper – I was going for Leadership. The goal was to be Director BEFORE National Conference 2013. The stats say those who go to national conference earn more – TRUE! Those who go to national conference – PROMOTE – TRUE! In October, 2012 I was a Director in Qualification and in January 2013, I earned my $1,000 Director Bonus. I had gained confidence as a consultant but being a Director brought new fears and challenges.
At National Conference 2013, I was joined by my daughter and members of the Rays of Hope Team. I walked across stage and was CELEBRATED as a NEW Thirty One Director. Tears of joy flowed freely all weekend and continue each time I think back to the moment. Hope Shortt, my Senior Executive Director, hugged me on stage. It is weird, the MS has stolen the memory but the emotion of walking across the stage stays with me bringing me to tears each time I think of it.
Since then my why has changed so much. I no longer work full-time due to health reasons. We rely on my Thirty One business as the second income in the house. It pays my credit card debt as a result of my relapse as well as some standard household bills (groceries, cell phone, cable and meals out). It allows me to work from home as I struggle with my MS.
I struggle with my “why” and learning to DREAM BIG. I still get nervous before a Home party. I struggle with personal development and fighting my haunting inner gremlins as processing thoughts are difficult most days. I am blessed with a sisterhood across the country who helps me when I am struggling, who celebrates with me and who encourages me when I struggle. My team inspires me everyday. They accept me for who I am and have helped me to learn to love me for me.
One of the biggest blessings is the support from the Pink Bubble Warriors. A group of Thirty One sisters with chronic diseases. Together we inspire each other. I gained some of my confidence back which was lost in HIGH SCHOOL. Yes, I earn FREE products! Yes, I earn a commission check every two weeks! Yes, I found a sisterhood I didn’t know existed in my Thirty One sisters! Yes, I have grown in my walk with God, learning to trust and believe his will will be done in my business! The benefits have definitely outweighed the negatives of those rough months.
This past year has been a true struggle – accepting my relapse, and the need for a twelve step recovery program to help fight the demons in my life. It is the result of vision casting with the Beacon of Hope Team (my upline’s team) which has helped me to focus on my why again. To Make a Difference in as many lives as possible while becoming debt free – is what keeps me going every day. It can be a little act of kindness with happy mail or a hug to delivering a welcome basket to a new single mom moving into her forever home. It is those things which keep me going when I am not sure what to do.
A $99 pink box eight years ago, CHANGED MY LIFE. Could it be the thing which changes yours?
Have a ThirtyOne-derful day!